TRALALA

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2007-10-03T11:18:00.001+08:00

hai

i'm so unhappy
and who can help me?

its so tough

if for 1 wk
i wld thank god

but it jus din happen.

i suck.

are u sick of its been so long?

2007-08-19T19:08:00.000+08:00

IT BEEN SO LONG!

i loss interest in blogging,
after losing so much.

anyway, i feel that i need to rant out alil to feel beta!

Lets get to the on hand issue 1st
i woke up from a pathetic half an hr nap
slping at 1plus am -9plus am daily
bcus i cant slp futher than 10am

and my pathetic nap is bcus i nd to wake up to do more exam papers
which i think i will totally screw
like how i screw blaw.

i did not complete what i actually know
but hell, it is over.

so 4 more papers.

next issue.
i know its my fault for not spending time with my frens
so its normal that i feel kind of left out.
its my fault, my bloody fault.
i'm so sorry, hope i have been there when you all need me.
yea, thanks for keep askin me out, really appreciated
just no clubbing for me. yea.

and for my poly frens
i think only she understand why am i lidat
and i guess it doesnt matter.
bcus im upset and left to rot.

next issue.
great, i'm bad being a student, being a fren, now being a gf.
i'm hot tempered, unreasonable, petty
everything you can think of.
i am.

so sis gg to get married
which is cool
heartless me can have a room for myself to be alone

nowdays, i lke being alone.
maybe alone make me think thru what i've done wrong
but never could i amend.

so who think its cool to be me?

and i like the weather cause its cool.
i'm sick of life which is cool.

okay,
go do exam paper.
i becoming a stone soon
sittin at a table forever.

thanks for coming =)

2007-06-10T13:01:00.000+08:00

first, u start out with a CORNY picture.
LOL

ahha! thats the very focus me =D

and the NOT FOCUS me.
i dont even think i was playing!
MUHA!

my cert! hahahaa.
my boy sure knows how to capture moments =D

so sweet.

she jus wants to be taller

she just want to tae a pretty pic of herself

she jus too lazyto stand

(JW!)

arh! nice backgrd. stupid cam.

QIRUI looks so eh. i dunno.

MY DAD N SIS!

left halfway thou --"

MY BOY!!!

thanks for the flower!!!

i love dem XD

my sis ask u to open our eyes. lol

love.

PRETTY FLOWER XD

then u end with anothe corny picture.

THE END !

its da making of GUITAR 1st MINI CONCERT XD

2007-06-10T12:16:00.000+08:00

Proudly present you,

MY BEST FREN in nps. (mayb?)

She will be coming round the mountain.

When we were tryin VERY hard to calm our nerves! playing wit ANY deco we can find!

ah! SANDRA

it would be a nice pic w/o someone. LOL

FLOWERS!

yours truly.

back stage!

ACT CUTE

Washroom oso take.

my favourite

i'm sorry

2007-05-25T20:24:00.000+08:00

yea,

i seriously need to apologise to my boy.

having super irregular serious mood swings.
super stress up cus i know nuts abt my subj n CT is comin ppl!

so i keep venting on him
yet he kind accepts it n try to make me laugh.

thanks you so much
really appreciate it.

love. =)

OKAY~

2007-05-13T17:55:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!!!

alil sth from photography lesson =)

i guess most ppl hv decided to give up on this blog

n jass started de "del yr blog"

tt taunts me til school!

hahahaa.

i cldnt focus of cost.

ohmy,

its lke im so busy tt i stil dunno wd is tching

jus lke do from notes n forgetin it de nx moment

HAIYO!!!

and my boyfren commented tt others blog abt their boy and i dont

heh~

so we pass our 3rd

4th is coming.

its kool~

our cycle are kind of weird,

we're jus havin honeymoon!

hahahahaa..

maybbb cus im busy

and yea

i learn to cool down my temper.

so overall

im happy~

i cant stand it wen i jus keep quitin from responsibility

but de ________

wasnt really much of a choice.

guitar is making me NO LIFE

as told by my BEEBEE!

hahahaha..

yea, it been long since i caught movie

not really long but u know

jus have de whole day to be outside =/

I MISS

CHANQIRUI,SIMRONGNA,GOHTEEYUE,BEAUTY,JASSIE,JOJO!

esp that horse~ so long nv meet up

i use to think im her boyfren!

HAAHAHAHAA..

yea,

she wil stay over at my house

watch vcds

play PS1 (metal slug)

go gai gai

ohman~

RONGNA's 18!!

missed!

of cus i miss my boy

who is under the weather AGN!

haiiyooo~~

our first picture.

i love you =)

its funny

2007-03-08T22:31:00.000+08:00

yea,
life is funny,
so are words.

it's weird that we humans
could always console ppl
telling them to cheer up
be happy, think on de bright side.

but,
when it happen to us
will we be able to do it?
why do we need others to tell us the same thing
which we might had told dem a few days ago?

alright alright~
i miss my boy.
hes busy
im busy

gosh

2007-02-27T02:32:00.000+08:00

i'm so very sad
yet, i feel that i rather turn in to a non-living thing.
just typing,
theres no need for reply
no need for ears.

i did not know i failed so bad
just by being a girlfriend.

it hurts
when everything you did to someone is nothing
he doesnt feel it
i'm sorry.

what i say was just how i feel
but i din't realise it hurt you.
i'm sorry.

to me,
it diff,
you and him.

i hope by not making the same mistake would bring us further
i thought i've made every effort i could.
it was not enff,
i dont deserve so much from you
i'm sorry

when you searched the whole world
just to find someone you need.
you just realise
you're all you need.

at least for now,
not that there is no one for me
it just that you're not here.

i really hope,
you could have talked to me in a clear state of mind
instead of this.

you need to fall really bad
to learn i suppose.

i fell,
i want to amend everything.
but it doesnt seems that way to you

ya,
its very unfair to you
i totally agree.
it's my fault
mayb im not just that ready for another r/s
than i thot i was.
i'm sorry.

i hope you can lead a better life.
no more tears,
no more sadness,
no more drowning yourself.

i wont cry anymore,
i will try very very hard,
i want to fufil a promise i made
for so many tyms to you.
at least thats what i could do.
at least.

takecare =)

=)

2007-02-12T14:25:00.000+08:00

being a real goody sister
i bought 2 yellow highlighter for my bro.

i'm so proud of myself,
its been long since i really rmb sth for someone else

feel so bad for my boy
poor thing,
i always 4gt things.

i'll try to improve on my lil brain
ohyea
finally i balancED a b/s
WOOOOO~
hur hur
aft doin so many tyms --"
im bound to screw up in the halls i'm sure.

you can't lose what you never really had.

save me

2007-02-11T21:48:00.000+08:00

nono,
i'm not emo
I NEED MOTIVATION.

great,
its either im over stress
or NOT STRESS AT ALL
im lke havin all the tym in de world
slaps myself*

anyway,
abt my prev entry
its sth my sis told me.
she said her fren once told her

Before you get married,
you're SOMEBODY's daughter

when you married
you're SOMEBODY's wife

the period of working towards yr goal and attaining it
you are yrself.
in the middle of sombody's daughter and somebody's wife
u're you =)

she said goal will find it ways to me
maybe when i start working
i can tell she love her job.

right,
wheres the goal for me?
i don't know.
someday it might come to me
before i become under another somebody's

life's good =)

2007-02-11T00:34:00.002+08:00

yea,
been super long since i updated.

well well.
life been so far so good
other than the stupid exam stresses and no time for (frenshoppingmoviesyou)
cries!

maec today was okay.
hope can do well ba~~

hmm.
not gona to live in someone's else shadow
gona live for who i am
look for my ultimate goal in life
=)

life's good =)

2007-02-11T00:34:00.001+08:00

URGH. #%$#@^$%&^#%&$^

2007-02-02T18:12:00.000+08:00

i'm so pekchek,
AND I DONT KNOW WHY?

i'm NOT interested in studyin money that chpt
my heads alil screwed up with pain
i'm very screwed up with econs

why why why?
whats wrong this time?
I DONT KNOW!
what happen?
I DONT KNOW!

why do this always happen,
nothing is wrong we just don't talk
yea.
unhappy over i dont know what

i want to
SCREAM MY HEAD OFF
PULL MY HAIR
BANG THE WALL

give me a break.

oh goodbye

2007-01-29T00:46:00.000+08:00

yea.
hate it when i always seem to quit
run away from all my problems.

it sucks badly
but stil,
i rather feel lke a loser den drag dwn my whole band

THE ALL TIME FAVOURITE

thank guys for being so understanding,
really had fun and laughters with you all.

sorry for wasting your time.

CHEERIOS FOR THE BAND EH!!!
XD
really hope the new member cld hlp

GUD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST FOR THE COMPETITION!!!!

to you all who tagged:
thank guys, asking me to push on. but i'm sorry to disappoint u, i wished i'm not sucha loser. i wont give up guitar thou, i jus take my own tym own pace to learn it eh. =)

can i?

2007-01-27T17:32:00.000+08:00

QUIT?

please please please please.
=../

i'm tired,
been practicing guitar since last night n whole afternoon
zz.

i USED to love guitar,
not anymore.

now when i see people carrying guitar on the streets,
i jus freak out.
it make me think that i'm in a competion and i've yet to practice
and i totally cant enjoy myself.

i know its my fault for not practicing.
but,
i need to get my scl work done
go to hosp
MY OWN LIFE.
god damn it.

its just not at my pace,
imma super slow learner
when it comes to rhym
dy jus knock knock knock
ok,
go home practice,
*IT TAKES 1 PERSON (ah huh me) TO PULL DOWN THE WHOLE BAND, ITS A COMPETITION*
* YOU ALL KNOW WHER YOU STAND*
*YEA YEA HES DOIN THE CORRECT WAY*
I HATE BAND PRACTICE!!!!!
I HATE IT!!!! VERY VERY MUCH!!!!
I HATE GUITAR!!!!!!

I REGRET JOINING THIS COMPETITION!
SUCK SUCK SUCK SUCK SUCK SUCK SUCK
i gave up my classical guitar.
CRIES!

YADA YADA YADA
DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOD DAMNIT

next tym i'll think twice when it comes to commitment
F***

MY BOYFRIEND =)

2007-01-22T22:44:00.000+08:00

arh huh.
as u totally can tel,
this post is dedicated to MY BOYFRIEND =D

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ps: hes wear the shirt i bought 4 his bday! XD XD XD

i know its LATE but stil

HAPPY 18th boy!!!!

>> the super paiseh pic

>> cutting cake!!

feels great to be the person right bside him to wish him a very happy 18th
(a pity that all surprises dint work out =/)
feels great to just have the 2 of us on the streets
feels great to see him smiling and smiling AND smiling away! XD
feels great to know that he appreciated what i did for him
feels great to be there when hes cutting his cake (getting splash wit cream)
feels great to eat mashmellowed bbq by him
feels great to eat duane's uncooked chicken wings n fish (LOL)

MAY ALL YR DREAMS N WISHES COME TRUE!!!!

20th was great!
went to eat
then to hosp
then to movie (blood diamond!! GO CATCH IT!!!!!!)
then to eat

=D
hope you enjoyed yr birthday!!!!

You can give the below a miss if your name is NOT
mr lum wen jun!

21st January 2007 marks a speical date,
a special date for him and me =)
all thanks to xiao lian for not cherishing their life.

sorry for dragging this thing for so long,
i'm so selfish for so long.
but not anymore!

it's just happen to cross my mind that
every beginning has an end,
thats why i've been selfish
and pathetic tears roll down on the 1st day itself.

i'm so afriad of losing,
losing to fate,
losing everything i have,
losing you.

i really hope this could last,
forever and ever and ever =)

lifes been great ever since u stepped in,
though we have our little "emo" situtation
but we sort it out and things get fine.
i really wish in the near future anything lidat could be avioded
and share with me your day, your thoughts, your hopes and dreams!

i love you .
so much so that i'm smiling to myself since 21st
LOL!

it feels great to have you by my side.
hope you feel the same way too!

lots of <3*

UPDATE!!

2007-01-17T15:52:00.000+08:00

cheerios! XD
am here to update.

i totally can tell you guys are missin my entry
WOOOOOOOOOO!!!

am havin lms now,
alan jus share so much of his "experience" with me
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

anyway,
something great happen just now.
=D
this is the first tym i'm willing to take up a challenge?
1st tym i wnted sth lke tis so badly
i wld jus run away from it in de past

AND
something uber sweet happen yesterday night.
=)

wcom is OFFICALLY down!!!!
YAY YAY YAY!!!!!!
thou i screwed up the latest test 20%
ok, let not talk abt it.

IAC n BMGT proj.
and EVERYTHING I DONE (for proj i mean)

thank you,
so very very much.
just by being there,
acc me,
making me laugh,
making me feel blessed.

i will try my best to keep myself happy n cheery
just so sorry for making you so worried.
i wont do silly things again.

i <3>

TAKE CARE PEOPLE!!!

so won't you kill me?

2007-01-04T22:44:00.000+08:00

oh yes,

i'm so tired.
i've so many things undone,
so many test coming up,
guitar.

DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN!

BYE BYE 2006 =)

2006-12-23T16:43:00.000+08:00

So,
now i'm at rui house trying to compete with her whos entry is longer
bcus she said her is always v.long and i dont agree to that
therefore, i'm trying to proof to her that mine wil be longer
heh. sorry folks this is gona be a LONG ONE!
XD
i'm lying on her bed, so shiok.
when shes the host and i get to lie on her bed!
YAY!!
ltr gg bishan than to beach road for gud food

btw, she just give me a really cheeky face
maybe problly she took a hedious pic of me siting/lying
with my hair all messed up and my poor pale face
shucks!

okay,
my point is i'll be super duper busy from tml onwards
here comes my NON-STOP-FUN XD

24th - party at rui's
25th - out wit him
26th - sing k
27th - beaut jeff yixian
28th - SCHOOL STUFF!!!!
29th - GANGSTA XD
1-2 - i seriously hope i can FINISH my scl stuff
tsk tsk.

as you can tell i won't have the time to blog
and say GOODBYE to yousuckyyuckywhatevershit 2006!
HURRAY!!! BYE BYE 2006!!!
I HATE YOU LKE MAD, YOU SUCK REAL BAD!!!!!
except for you know who =)

wow!
time past REALLY SERIOUSLY DUPERLY fast when
1) you're experiencing a super swayyyyy life

ok she jus tried to stop me from bloggin and she bang her leg agnst her bed stand. forgive her, shes always this silly. LOL

well, i din't say i was swayyyy for no reason okay?
i lost my wallet TWICE less dan 2 weeks.
for a person who had never lose her wallet
its a deep impact.
i'm so so so so so so so affectced by it
omg.

2) the toughest time ever.
so i been through a break up
and worst of all.
laotianye almost took away my grandma.
cried like shit,
felt like shit.
everything sucks,
it felt like EVERY, every single thing was agsnt me
bad bad bad memory!!!

well, i took very long to finally give up that boy.
he made me fall so deep for him, rely on him so much.

i just have to thank ALL OF YOU for just being there for me.

Qirui: she got so angry over me cause i can't give up. hahahahaa! and i cried cause i felt that i let her down. oh man, how sweet of her larh. hahahahaa.. THANK YOU LOVE =)

Rongna: she just keep scolding you know what larh! hur hur! i know you're concern and for that. I <3 you k? =D sometimes, somethings can only be memories.

Teeyue: thanks for your shoulder, listening to me, wipe my tears, givin me all the consoles. I LOVE YOU MY SUCKEERRR!!!!

Beaut: all the listening and consoles. my beebee~ =D

YOU aka PASSWORD: DROWSSAP!!!!! =D thank you so much just being there always. when i needed someone you were there, to encourage, to cheer up, to make fun, to accompany. THANKS. i'll remember all the little thing you done for me. even its just waitin for me, it means alot. someone who never fails to make steph smile.

3) ta05
Well, ta05 does disappoint me alot in terms of bonding. As times goes by you see all the free rider coming out make life difficults for others, its sad, so sad.

Luckily, i have MY PROJ GRP MATES! CarolHuijunWeijunCaiquan : you guys brought me sooooooooo much fun and laughter, make poly life so much interesting, fun, something in school which i look forward to. =D love you all very very much =D

Chunhui: my 2nd poly fren! hahahaa. though we might have drifted apart lets just keep this going eh! =D thankyou, you have been there for me to listenin to my naggings and encouraging me and all. ("v")

4) Guitar, my life.
i got so much exposure to guitar and I LOVE IT!!!!
so very very much.
though at times i jus feel lke giving up, ders always sth tt keeps me gg.
if you ask me for my goal, tt would be guitar! to be able to play songs. =D

5) darling kenny.
my dearest darling left me,
he was with me since e.o.y of pri 6
it been 4yrs plus.
i'm so sorry i did not cherish you,
spend time with you,
played enff with you,
took good care of you.

i hate myself for that,
very very much.
how many "i wished i had"

i love you darling,
and you know you'll be missed forever
by me.

i guess that roughly sums up my 2006.
it was a suckiest year i ever had,
the one i cried so much,
swear so much,
hate so much.
yet i'm so lucky to have people, you around me.

THANK YOU.

till then,
TAKE CARE XD

YADA YADA

2006-12-13T15:58:00.000+08:00

tml is the day,
the big day...

MY LAST PAPER!!!
HARRRPPPYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

i bet i'm gona have non-stop fun
SHIOK!
which means i wont be updating my blog so often.
hmm..

so tml i'll b gg out wit the usuals but might not as e paper i ending late
and i nv hear dem talkin abt it. hmmm.
but tts okay! i can go meet hur hur!
hahahahaa.. fried rice fried rice.. XD

finally a break after this busy busty SEM!
WOOOTS.
but no, this doesnt mark the end of endless projs n stupid tests
the problem is i'll b doin proj on fri --" -->bca, DARN U BCA
spoilmyplanofgoingout -pouts pouts-
AND WHAT ABOUT WCOM?
omgisohateprojs

ohya, IAC
ohya! LMS
OHYA! econs n wcom test aft holi

okayyy..
so mayb not THAT much of non-stop fun.
zzzzzzz.

but but but.
sat i'll be gg to beaut performance,
so YAY! =D

and sunday i have my H2Z guitar training.
i seriously need to brush up my skills.
double YAY!

okay, i need some time with you. =/
tsk! CRIES!

好想告诉我的他。。。。

anyway,
holiday will be
->projstudyggoutmeetingfrensyou.

its stil better dan havin to face boring lectuers n tutors.
HURRAAAYYY~~~~ jumps***

hmm.
i think i MUST be dreamin in all FFA lect.
i read the notes and i learn alot.
becus i know nuts! HUR HUR~

alrightt..
off to study~
EVERYONE LETS GET FAT!!!
JIA YOU JIA YOU MA!!
hur hur!

bye bye. TAKECARE!!!

“我很想你。。”

importance

2006-12-10T17:00:00.000+08:00

omg.
my dad pisses me off recently with his OVER concern for sunshine
LOL.

but im stil glad i've SUNSHINE on a cloudy day! =D
he really cheers up the whole family with his style of running!
he runs lke a a a a a...
RABBIT!!
with his ears shooting up and hopping agn.
omghessocute!
hahahahahaha...

4am yest
and dad had to piss me off by waking me up to feed sunshine med
no the part is not tt i hv to wake up
its tt HE SHOUTED at me.
i hate people to shout at me, seriously hate it.
yalayala, im a pampered child.
hahahahahaa..

but i shall be a gud ger since hes bday is coming REAL soon
=D
i even thought of the present alrdy!

its funny how 2 person can think of the same thing
but both in the wrong way.
HA!

maybe we just love to think too much.
you know that feeling of your heart contracting S-U-C-K-S.
its like i dont have to do this to myself,
almst given up again.

but i din't and i'm glad i din't. =)
we're still on the running track.

just remember to tell me your thoughts, your dreams and your day!
XD

i dont want a happy me to be a reason,
i wn me to be a reason.

four days is really a torture alrdy,
and i still have 2 more days.
6DAYS! =/

so we agreed to ignore how people think about us,
agreed to share thoughts,
i'm just so happy now!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAA!!

my motivation, i heart you. =)

ARGH! scream screams!!!!!

2006-12-08T15:52:00.000+08:00

i dont know why am i thinking so much
DAMN IT DAMN DAMN IT.

great,
now i feel that my econs is in de middle of nowwhere,
my bca is not any better
as for ffa i think alot of luck might be of some hlp.

can i scold vulgar? LOL

i just hope history wont repeat itself like it always do.
I CANT FOCUS
I CANT CONCENTRATE
I NEED MOTIVATION
DAMN DAMN DAMN.

i so hate CT. =/

rain rain.

2006-12-06T19:37:00.000+08:00

the weather just make me miss people.
well well.

jus bcus i wnted to eat anderson ice cream
my queen acc me all da way to marina square last sat.
THANK YOU! =)

i heart those purple balls n golden lightings.

i miss you.

kr was alrrrriggghhht lah.
not as gud as i thought though.
kicking of slippers, taking pic with paper xmas trees?,
laughing like some mad woman, icecream = happy steph,
chatted ALOT. =D

thanks for waiting 4 me in the lib,
acc me to mrt station.

thank you so much! =D

btw, i gt a cut. =/

oh well.
see you guys after CT!
gud luck people!!
JIA YOU ADD OIL AND ZAI JIA YOU!!!
wooottttsss XD XD XD

takecare!

i miss you.

MUAHAHAHAHA!

2006-11-30T00:05:00.000+08:00

YES PEOPLE!!
LAUGH AT HIM!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAA!!

okok.. im joking.
hes jus trying to be funny. =D

THANK YOU TCQ! URE VERY FUNNY. HA!

been long. =)

2006-11-29T23:49:00.000+08:00

ITS BEEN SO LONG.
hahahaha.
i'm here bcus i think v.soon ppl wil ask me to update!!

okok.
so here you go! =D

SPONGEBOB!!!!!
super cute right?
its a bowl ball!!!

0000-7.
my score!!
hahahaha..
i'm super super noob at ball.
LOOK! CAROL IS 7TYMS OF ME!!!
hahahahaa..

THE DRAWING OF THE PRO

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THE DRAWING OF THE NOOB

i know, the drawings are super lame eh?
LOL!

we were SUPPOSE to be studying.
but still! a lot done!

thanks for waiting for me on mon and so many other days!
jus to acc me home. =)

Life just feel like this.
The journey just seem so far, so dark, so everlasting.

it's just happenings/people who became the light of your life at every station =)

"i can't afford to lose king once again."
"you won't! =)"

and i can't afford to miss it again.

TAKECARE PEOPLE!
i'll be gone so young! =D

=)

2006-11-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

lips of an angel.

2006-11-21T10:19:00.000+08:00

nice song!

i'm outside 06-07 now,
waiting for wcom meetings to get over.
my turn is up and over
=) welldone?

no thinkingtoomuch, no emo, no sadness.
everything is clear and
i'm uber pleased with my life now.
even though i reach home at a average of 11pm daily
its okay!
at least now i had someone who cared and wait for me.
=D

please keep it this way..

i think i should go personal very very soon.
with all the sterotypes irritating me.
TSK TSK.
hahahahaha...

i'm so blessed now i wont even be bothered with those
%$^%^%&^%&
XD

my fingers hurts,
guitar pratice til 10pm yest? OMG
nvm, it wil be numb soon as i heard from my dad.

AND YES PEOPLE!
i'm gg to learn electric guitar vary vary SOON
XD XD XD XD XD XD
thanks to TCQ!!!
muhahahaha...

he said that i might not suit cus de guitar is too big for me
=/
oh well

i'm gg to learn my tao gay well man!
i'm super messed up yesterday~
tsk tsk..

AND AND AND
START WORKING HARD!!!
START STUDYING STEPH!!!
i'm gona slap yr bum bum!!!!

XD XD XD XD XD XD
happy happy!

happenings.=D

2006-11-19T11:36:00.000+08:00

these few weeks had been great!
due to : carolhuijunweijuncaiquan. XD

had fun working with them,
had joy and laughter spending tym with them!

first was yukiyaki - YUM YUM.
slice beef rooooccckkkk XD XD XD

second was bowling -WOOTS
i got last for 2 rds =((
my nx target is to beat the caiquan the LAST SECOND!!! hahahahaa..
carol rule at bowling.
i suck at it. sighhhh~
HAHAA.
weijun MEI YOU ***!!!! de secrect pin to victory for weijun
and since its a secrect i shall not reveal it =P
huijun won weijun! LOL
caiquan jus basically threw de ball up in the air n dwn de drain.

third was poning wcom plus running in the rain - LOL
wen bukit timah to eat,
de carrotcake was not bad! XD
chit chatting.
RUNNING IN THE RAIN!!!
HAHAHAHAHAA!
carol made me laugh lke some mad woman! ^%$^$@!!

FUN FUN FUN.

PRECIOUS MOMENTS SPENT WITH PRECIOUS PEOPLE. XD

sat- WAS GREAT.

1) laughing at beng beng hair!
2) cardreplaceandhpbought
3) pretending to sleep in the theatre --"
4) step up was oooooook only, prefered e other one.
5) ARCADE. ownage at fighting games and suck at bishibashi.
6) got myself another free dinner for wining sum botaks! LOL
7) listening to live music which totally ROCK! =D
8) bensnjerry2mineralwaterpoky @ its a store n more.
9) down to nut* NICE HOTDOGS BREADS THEY HAVE!!!!! mus eat!!!
10) roof was okay with no winds n no stars~
11) is bensnjerry's ice cream so torturing?
12) nut's indoor rock with air con!
13) art is undefine! HAHA. fairy/butterfly/dragonfly?
14) backfacedandthefuture, manual driving, feetsobig.
15) sliding down stairs handle! LOL
16) THIS LINE! THIS LEAF! THIS ZEBRA CROSSING!

live yongqi! ^^

hella fun!!!!
i'm so happppyyyy~~
XD XD XD XD XD XD

HIPPO NEXT!!!! hahahahahaha!!!

saturday actually rock?

takecare people!!!

the past

2006-11-17T01:02:00.000+08:00

life is funny,
time and memories the worst and the best thing god could ever give
me or anyone out there.

happen to stumble across MORE photos,
i thought i deleted all of them.

i din't! its all in my thumbdrive. LOL

i'm keeping them not because i wish to go back
it's because they are good memories.
at least something which is worthwhile to remember!

so many memories just playback in my head. =)

though we dint make it in the end
and we thought forever was within our reach
i still had very very gud memories with you~

i hope ure doing fine now,
happier now,
have a goal now,
be nice to your parent now,
have great frens now,
love someone now.
because i'm doing so and i hope ure too! =))

on a lighter note.
i found pics from 1st sem,
me carol chunhui.
awww~
my hair was stil SO SHORT!!!
hahahaha..

but things seem to have changed,
the distruption of groups seems to draw a line between us.
so we must cherish everyone okay?!?!
keep this bond we all shared.

thanks for assuring your feelings to me,
i'm really glad i got you back in my life. =D

naggings

2006-11-12T02:14:00.001+08:00

i dunno why do i even let it bother me so much.

ohwell.

naggings

2006-11-12T02:14:00.000+08:00

well well.

2006-11-11T02:57:00.000+08:00

i'm bloggin now because im waitin 4 my hair to dry!
problem with long hair! tsk.

k for 3h,
was GREAT!

material girl is a nono.
ty fell aslp,
i tried very hard to laugh.

i like cabby uncles that wish me gud night.
=D

seems like my post of scandals created a lil bit of commotion in cls today!
my team mates had a great laugh eh? ^^
OMG! SIM FOOD IS GUD!
as in dy look gud lah!
i'm lke livin in e moutain
den i took a walk down the moutain today.
ZZZZZ

de chicken chop was not bad.
I MUS TRY THEIR BROWINE!!

well,
gona apologise to teeyue!
SORRRY BABE! REALLY VERY SORRY.

Thoughts (skip this part if ure slpy) :

well well.
i read my past entries,
felt that i missed out so much during tt period of tym.
all the laughter i deserved,
so many things i lost,
the human i mistreated,
the love i deserved.
i'm trying my best to claim them back.
can i?
could i buy back tym i lost?
opportunity i missed?
i can't. sadly i cant..
i cant take back things that were once mine.
or COULD HAD been mine.

i'm sorry that i disappoint you at that period of time,
i dint know i was hurting someone with my stubborness.
i will do anything to make you smile.
to amend anything. =D

oh well,
regrets makes ppl grow eh?
dont take a step back wen it comes to interest.
PEOPLE! LISTEN TO YOURSELF K?
whoever $#%$^%&^% that is stopping you frm yr dream
kindly ask dem to keep quiet.

i regretted. floorball. DAMN DAMN DAMN. =(((

oh well, at least im not too late for guitar!
im not gg to give up on that.
wow.
imagine steph carrying a guitar at de back of hers.
OMG!!! SO SHUAI RIGHT?!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA!!!!
okay, de guitar wont be taller dan me right?
HAHAHAHAHAHAA.

been seeing my frens being so emo.
the few of them.

to no.1 --> i really hope the feelin u had wit us now will go off not bcus ure used to it but bcus we really care and is concerned about u. y feel that ure alone wen de world is around u? =)

to no.2 --> sometimes, you had to be selfish. VERY SELFISH. cum'on we come to this world to live for ourself right? make de best out of things eh? not to stress yrself over sum1 elses responsiblity. eh? no matter what, its yr life u can afford to choose. n wen u start to choose u might love it.

to no3 --> it get toughs when you're working alone but trust me, i'm willing to help! same things goes to you. LIVE FOR YOURSELF GIRL!!! dont be demoralise. next tym we go mask ourself n give that IDIOT a gud bashin up k? LOL. does i matter if he lkes u anot? no1 lkes him anyway! hahahaha.. so take gud care eh? show how u feel. express it out dont hide it, it jus worsen things.

last but not least.
SCHOOL IS SO BUSY WITH PROJ PILING.
oh well.
time management steph!!!
@!$$^%^*^&(*#$%&*^(*&(*!##$

takecare people =)

SCANDALSSSSS!!! MUHAHAHAHHAA!!!

2006-11-09T23:15:00.000+08:00

WOOOO!
winks*

SCANDAL 1

DING ZHI!!!
WTH U DOING?!!??!!??!
ORH HOR! hw u explain yr 1st scandal!?!?

SCANDAL 2

!?!??!?!?!?!?!
chun hui got caught too! LOL

SCANDAL 3

well..
today i had fun being a PI*
MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAA!!!!!

PLEASE TAKE NOTE THAT THE ABOVE PIC IS PURELY FOR ENTERTAINMENT PURPOSE ITS JUST RANDOMS PIC. THANK YOU! =D

wei jun looked super STUNNED*

181's view was great!
air was fresher for sure!
=D

you made me laugh!

thanks you.

suppose..

2006-10-31T18:20:00.002+08:00

we're suppose to do proj.

weijun wen to "ta per" until now hvn come bk --"

so me carol cq played a super lame game
tryin to play de same song at de same tym.

i'm so tired!!

i really hope that ure treatin me so nice is bcus u wn to,
not bcus ure sorry abt the past.

suppose

2006-10-31T18:20:00.001+08:00

suppose

2006-10-31T18:20:00.000+08:00

wcom.

2006-10-31T00:52:00.000+08:00

I am a changed person because of many incidents that occur this year. Having to deal with the culture shock I had when I first enter polytechnic, my dog got run down by a car. The accident is very heartbreaking for my family. It has been with our family for four years and it is the closest to me. Licking my toes to wake me up in the morning, jumping around when I reach home was like a daily routine. To top it up, I had a boyfriend at that point of time so I neglected it before it met the accident.

The second thing that affects me was that my grandmother was very ill and had to be admitted to the hospital. The doctor told us that her heart and kidney is not functioning normally, she had to use breathing tube to help her breathe. Daily, she would complain to us how much blood the nurses drew from her today and there are bruises all over her hand. Sometimes, she is even too weak to speak. Lucky for me she has already recovered though she needs a walking stick to support her now, I’m glad she is back at home again.

Both incidents make me realize that I need to cherish what I have. For my dog, all I can do now is to miss him since I wasted my chance of cherishing him. I really wished that I had done more for him, bring him to the park more often, play with him more often. I’m really glad I was given a second chance to cherish my grandmother, I wouldn’t take her or anyone else for granted anymore.

sorry for very bad english!

btw,
I KNOW HW TO BLOW BUBBLE GUM ALRDY!!!
YAY!!! XD XD XD

and and..
chun hui gona buy me HAPPY!

LAUGH OUT LOUD

2006-10-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

CW DO SCOLD VULGARITIES!

hahaha, that has to be the funniest thing i hv EVER heard.
i cldnt stop laughing wen i hear him say cb
CW n CB?!?!? LKE HUH?!
hahahaha..
i'm sucha meanie!!
but im praisin him!
he totally look lke he wont scold.

n yea, jw n wj think i look lke i wil scold
ZZZZZ
anyway,
dy are super funny at de buffet.
i dint know my dear cousin could actually crap so much!!
faints*

de food was alright.

ohman,
i'm so tired. mentally i guess?
so busy!
but actually i love being busy.
arhhh contridicting!

WOOO!! after saturday's afterglow..
I'LL BE FREEE!!!
MUHAHAHAHAHHAA!!!!

takecareppl! XD

starting afresh.

2006-10-26T16:41:00.000+08:00

yes,
i'm gg to start everything all over agn.
be myself.
the cheery and happy SLSP! XD

i'm glad all the struggles are over and i can finally breathe agn.

i therefore declare that i had nothing to do with you anymore! =D

this is funny

2006-10-24T22:56:00.000+08:00

it all started when
i put "??"
[amphasis] kuku says:
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USE ALREADY LA
♥STEPH. if pretending can get me far, i dont mind. says:
LOSE LE!!!
[amphasis] kuku says:
NO!!
♥STEPH. if pretending can get me far, i dont mind. says:
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[amphasis] kuku says:
is >>
[amphasis] kuku says:
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i win!
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♥STEPH. if pretending can get me far, i dont mind. says:
SEE!!
[amphasis] kuku says:
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♥STEPH. if pretending can get me far, i dont mind. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAa
♥STEPH. if pretending can get me far, i dont mind. says:
YAYAAYAY!
[amphasis] kuku says:
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
[amphasis] kuku says:
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[amphasis] kuku says:
wait wait!!
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♥STEPH. if pretending can get me far, i dont mind. says:
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♥STEPH. if pretending can get me far, i dont mind. says:
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♥STEPH. if pretending can get me far, i dont mind. says:
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[amphasis] kuku says:
wat tat one!
♥STEPH. if pretending can get me far, i dont mind. says:
HAHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAAHA
♥STEPH. if pretending can get me far, i dont mind. says:
I WIN LE LAH
[amphasis] kuku says:
cant like tat la!
♥STEPH. if pretending can get me far, i dont mind. says:
YAY!!!
[amphasis] kuku says:
EEEEEEEEEEEEEe
[amphasis] kuku says:
da bian de!
♥STEPH. if pretending can get me far, i dont mind. says:
IS U DA BIAN LO
♥STEPH. if pretending can get me far, i dont mind. says:
LOSE LIAO STIL LIDAT
[amphasis] kuku says:
LOL LOL

im not okay.

i cant fall aslp again and again

2006-10-24T02:20:00.000+08:00

could anyone help me stop the time.
let me breathe awhile then continue it.
please.

i'm dying..
i cant sleep..
my mind keep spinning and spinning~
make it stop!! STOP!!

why those 2006 sucks so much?!
WHY?
make it so tough 4 me to breathe

my heart hurts,
again and again.
i jus wish for a simple life.

eday i go home,
i wish i hope
i can see my grandma being v.healthy
my mum watchin tv
my dad there crapping
my sis der being fierce
my bro been super lame
me smilin at all of dem
feel happy frm within.

is it so diff to give me all these??
SO MANY THINGS ARE PILING ON ME.
so tiring to carry dem.

i just wish to have someone here for me to hug, to cry, to lie.
this sucks. life sucks.

GO ON TREATING ME LKE I HAVE NO FEELINGS
GO ON CRASHING MY WORLD AS IF ITS NT ENFF
GO ON SLASHIN MY HEART

do whatever you all want to make me.

i lost my confidence, my faith.
WHATEVER IT IS.

FORGET IT!!!
GO AWAY.

PICTURES

2006-10-21T19:14:00.000+08:00

the super clear water in coral island =D

SHOPPPINGGG SPREEEEE

the two typical tourist! BUT we fell off frm jetski! hahahaha!

home sweet home. sunset! =D

WHKL XD

2006-10-21T19:07:00.000+08:00

from the tags
I KNOW YOU GUYS MISS ME!!! HAHAA!!

thai was great!
4days 3nights of fun
XD
great company frm qirui!!

1)shoppin was great,
2)seafood (scallap(?)) was awesome! SO CUTE LAH DE WAY DY SWIM!!
3) coral island, sea sports ROCK

scl reopen.
awww~~

get to know alot of stuff this afternoon.
it stil feels beta to know it from you =)
hahaha..
felt lke confession of 2 soul.
i thank you u thank me.
say out hw we used to feel.
regrets?
amend it, learn from it.

feeling great now,
at least im impt in somebody's life. =D

running.

2006-10-12T20:02:00.000+08:00

went to run just now,
2rds of estate n half rd of walking.
and the feeling is SO SHIOK!

wa..
felt as though im gg to vomit my lungs out,
my leg wasnt mine
and
my ankle breaking.

okay, not that gross.
but you get the idea. =)

anyway,
i took quite long to decide whether shld i go running not.
cus it looks lke its gg to rain and im havin alil sorethroat.
ohwell.

i was so pekchek tt i SERIOUSLY nd to do sth to relief my pekchek'ness

oh well,
just lettin ppl duan me 2tyms today.
super shiok feeling
nx tym i wn to duan ppl to let dem hv tt shiok feeling tooo!!!
=D uber kind me .

i want to run 3rds soon!
but im gg thai!!
man man lai ba!!!

takecare ppl!

alright!

2006-10-08T21:59:00.000+08:00

i know i know,
u all wn me to update badly!!
i know i know,
pro bloggin skills.

MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

okay, shall be super random
1) NEW STUFF (clothespantmp3hp)
2) i hate haze
3) im gg to thai frm 14-17
4) i CUT my hair

thoughts:
when a relationship break down.
we humans always find someone to blame,
often the other party/ frens' other party.

why?
WHO THE HELL WIL BLAME THEMSELVES?
think about it.

i really hope people out there wont dislike him or what.
cause serious thinking make me realise that.
i'm at fault, those endless fights start with ME.
just that im too afraid to let go, afraid that i might regret.
its my fault too, cause obviously i did make things sounnd lke hes the 1 in the wrong.

regrets?
i've seen people regretting but most of them
are the one who broke up with the other party.
so i dont blame him anymore.
like for what?

however,
words get so hurting at times.

why do people have to lose to realise that they need "them/it".

regret? doing the things u done or not doing anything abt it.
i would regret more on not doing anything.
alot alot of regrets for steph!

i mean we couldnt live life w/o any regrets
human nd to be hurt, to realise their mistake.

ohmann..
im like lecturing or sth.
boo!

take care people!
love steph =D

memories

2006-10-02T14:27:00.000+08:00

seriously,
i cant remember wd exactly happen tis week.

its moving so fast.

FRIDAY
1) ty's bday!!!
2) caught john tucker mus DIEE (ps: jus think e plot is too similar to mean girls)
3)billy bombers's cheese FRIES!!!
4) grapevine! (had de usuals)
5) for photos go to http://icegreentea.blogspot.com
6) majiong plus cake surprise

i hope ure a happy gurlie!!!! =DD

SATURDAY
1) it's been long, since i felt so happy.
2) watched rob- b-hood (DROOLS FOR WU YAN ZHU!!!)
omg. HES DARN CUTE!!!!!!! XD XD XD
3) kept takin e wrong drinks to drink, throwed popcorns
(nothing much really =p)
4) PS's arcade. race car, shot humans, inital D's below ave card
5) srgn's chicken cutlet
6) latern was WAYYYYY funnny!!!

XD

SUNDAY
1) got pressents
2) draw eye liner
3) cried at jass's party! IM SO SORRRY BABE!!!
4) met him
5) i wish i dint.

i wish i could have more courage. =)

EVERYTHING IS GONA BE ALRIGHT!

2006-09-27T12:24:00.000+08:00

when i thought,
i'm the happiest and luckiest girlie in the whole wide world.

once again,
my world came crushing down on me.

i guess me and him,
are just not meant to be. =)

well,
this time i had no regrets again!
cause i know i'm tryin to change,
trying hard, trying well.

and if fate choose to play me in this way,
all i can do is to accept and
MOVE ON!

as usual,
i turn to someone.
THANK YOU! =D
i'm glad u're always there.
makin me feel that
"hey! its not end of the world dude!"

telling me,
if i'm sad, my frens will be sad with me.
and i dont want that to happen.
esp when you guys out der REALLY LOVE ME.
i know u all love me.
pamper me like a little girl.
i always get what i want!
HEH HEH! *evil grins**

anyway!
i'll stay happy!
thats a promise made to you and to myself
=D
and and.
another promise that we both know.
=)

ps: dont ask me 4 de reason k? wait til im really alright den i wil share my story with you all!

=D

2006-09-24T14:57:00.000+08:00

i've been far too sad
for far too long.

so, heres de CHEERY STEPHYY once again.
i finally figure out the problem with me.

RELIANCE on him.
ahhhh~ (nods)
so for the past few days,
i stop relyin on him.

and..
it makes me feel so much beta la
XD

so we're alright now
i hope.

i hope we really can reach 1yr.
its coming very soon!
lol

I LOVE YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE!
muuuaaaccckkkkssss*

why?

2006-09-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

why am i doing this to myself?
seriously, if i cant dont cry for a week.
ANYONE should really celebrate and cut cake with me.

it feel so ___ to jus cry right after yr bday.
it feel so ____ to pin so high hopes on you yet you just let me go.
it feel so ____ that i'm just NOTHING.

stop loving.
seriously, it kills.

i wldnt mind meetin u at katong
even if i had to travel all e way
if i had my hp, i would.
and all together 2days = 7hs of slp + sore throat + >10h of standin
but i still want to.

maybe it doesnt matter to you.
where is the i'll love you forever?
where is the ok, i go pick u up
where is the are you feelin beta?

i nv regret going back,
i regret ---------

FUCK.
life sucks.

IMMA BACKKK!!!

2006-09-15T11:39:00.000+08:00

i bet you guys miss me and my entries. RIGHT?
first of all i'm so sorry 4 not replyin to tags cus my tagboard v.hard to type =p
no worries, im changing skin soon!

HMM.
just got back from camp, kind of tired but cant slp --"
okiee

1st day:
it was raining like dunno what shit la..
den have to play in the rain i super scare i fever.
did some activities den we went rafting!
i dunno hw it feels lke to raft, i was jus lying in the middle. LOL
after that suppose to play low elements but due to the RAIN
we played indoor..
den had briefing for leaders of de day.
thought alot about what mel n vinda said..
=)

2nd day:
low elments with "low wall" and the u stand on the log shuffle yrself 1
den was~~
HIGH ELEMENTS!!
but was vvv.disappointed
we played 2 elements only..
cus we waiting to play the big swing =((
it looks so bloody fun la..

saw the REAL character of some ppl.

At night was tracking.
was great, just tt gary keep scaring us. and "THE MOON"(lol)
the whole camp ppl know abt it la..
alvin keep scolding gary 4 being in front of him.. super funny!
den me n agnes keep holding hand, so scared la.
it was muddy water, bumpy roads that bump (by jo) LOL, soft mud, routy roads.
was not bad! sth different!!

3rd day:
TCP!
at 1st der were 4 of us then de other 2 of our members gt sick
so only left with me, cheryl, a lecturer and CARROT!!!
ahaahhahaa...
it was great!! seriously!!! the sense of acomplishment.
and i had to thank cheryl!!! for being SO SO SO supportive!!!!!!
i was so afraid to cross the bridge and she was there to support me.

the leap of faith~!!
sth tt inspired me that no matter how tough is yr life, how fears gripped you someday somehow you will make it through!!! with the support from others and with your own determination!!
cus it dint seem tough but wen u really had to cross it fears gripped you but i know cheryl is there to support me.
XD

flying fox from the top of the tcp!
SHUANG ARRHHH!!! de wind and all
FUN FUN FUN!!! XDD

den it was PAINTBALL!
my group won!! both of us won!!
hahahaha..
me and a person i duno who cus we're all in mask keep shootin each other but failed
SUPER FUNNY. i think is a ger too. cus lke can tel no strength hold de gun!
hahahaha..
den wen jun an wen to run to get the bag sum 1 stood up n shoot at him
n i stood up to shoot at tt guy
i missed e.single shot
but i made him squat dwn instead.

it was campfire! was not bad.
all the new songs and all! pokie pokie remix! lol
i know my angle!! regina!!
shes such a CUTE angel she gave me m&ms and a EGG!

ok.. i've to go out le..
update again!! =D

it's the weather!

2006-09-01T01:15:00.000+08:00

just came back from chalet..
IT WAS GREAT!
oh man oh man.
steph <3 ta05, i seriously think we're bonded!
=D

wen back to scl today,
was happy! very happy!!! loving all my sec scl fren very much!
=)

i guess it is the weather,
to make beaut chun hui me to be so EMO.
=(

i can't help it..
but thoughts keep popping up.
i wanted to love you with all my heart
and when i seriously gave up,
you said those words.

i'm not sure
but are you making a gud use of me?

when you need me,
u jus pop up.
and when u dont u jus leave..

i dont want to cry anymore..
i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want.

sometym, i jus feel lke leaving tis world for gud.
i know i should feel very contented with my life.

but im very tired..
memories SUCKS.

=__________________ (

=)

2006-08-26T12:32:00.000+08:00

this time round,
reality really tore us apart.

i cried that night, so bitterly
my eyes was swollen the next day(fri).

someone asked me "how long have you been sad over this thing?"
HOW LONG?
i don't when it started i lost count or i dint even have the strength to count anymore.
i just know, this time it is really over.

sorry that my tone was harsh.
i felt so hurt, after what i have fight for for so long is all gone.
you gave me up time and time,
i tried all my best to get you back because
a fren of mine told me, decide what you want and fight for it
it is either to give up once and for all
or continue to accept you for who you are.
i choose the latter because ilu.

i din't know, it was so easy for you to gave me up.
all you have to do is to "do something about it"
and giving me up was doing something about it.
i was very very hurt.

yes. exam is over, last paper is over..
i ought to be very happy.
i had mahjong with my darlings last night and they made me SO HAPPY.
but i couldn't slp last tym after i put down the phone.
i watch tv till i got so bored of it and my bro nd to use my com.
so i jus slp in the room looking at the light shining from the study room.
i thought about the past.
everything that happen in srjc.
"i miss the old times we had together"
"those times are over"as what you said on msn.
yes, they are over. maybe that is the reason why i din't and cldnt cry last night
i wanted to cry so badly, i thought it will lessen the pain i'm feeling.

does anyone know? how does it feels like when you want to cry so badly
yet.. nothing came out.

原来，人在最伤心时会一滴眼泪都流不出。。
something from "xi guan da shao"

now i know how it feels like,
maybe we're just too numb to feel the pain.
i had been crying and crying.
this time it really is goodbye.
and there is really no turning back..

i shouldn't be sad anymore,
i'm too tired to be sad.
why should i be sad?
when i gave my all, whatever effort to continue our r/s
i have tried.
for this i have no regrets and have to move on to the next chpt of my life.

GOODBYE!!!!!! takecare of yourself!! =D

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some thank you! to say

chun hui >> dear girl! i really thank god i have you. =) i don't know why, i dint know this girl for long but i could tel her every single thing that is going around me. when i'm discourage i wil jus go talk to her and somehow she will motivate me. asking me not to give up asking me to GO GO GO. telling me people who have menses do well in exam (LOL). each and everything you have said and done for me chun hui i would remember them clearly! THANKS. =) may our frenship last ever and ever.

carol, our DAI DAI >> this girl arh. super gong. but a msn nick of mine would make her give me a KISS! asking me not to give up, happiness lies within ourself we must not lose it. saying i'm a superwomen, a strong ger. =D yes, i wont give up the carol! see i've studied for infa. we're the "CANNOT BALANCE PEOPLE".. XD

qirui>> I LOVE YOU! seriously, when i was with him i cannot deny that i spend so much time wit him that i kind of ignore this darling over here. but when i lost him, she dint mind i wen to find her asking her to study with me, to pei me. if it was me i would have hate myself very much for being such a useless fren! zhong se qing you ma. now, we cldn't study without each other! lol.. really thank you.. esp yr crappness really cracks me up!! love!!

weiyang>> this guy, my BEST BEST guy fren i must say! always there for me. sorry i dint look u up when i was in trouble u know why right? but this guy always give me a reality check pouring me with tons of reality pulling me back. i know he meant well! and im sure when i need him he would be there for sure. and ever since O lvl, there isnt 1 paper tt he dint wish me gud luck, jia you and motivating me. =D THANK YOU!! <3*

LAO LUM>> the person who always make me smile with his never ending cold joke, saying hes gay, the SUPER funny photo of his, giving me the best advice in the whole world, encouraging me, finding rainbows for me, wishing me all the best in exam, rakion with me (u stil hvn grip me), buying lucky to treat me. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! XD

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replies

ling>> HAHAHAA. thank you so much!!! i will if i need some enlightenment from de goddess. tell u in msn wen i see u! XD

saint>> ello, u're?!?!?! saint?

beaut>> one more only also complain! lol.. eh.. thur gangsta meetin up to go bk to scl so i suppose we cant go out after tt and we nd to go to de concert!!! rmb?? meetin wy at 6pm. tell you details ltr.

huijun>> ELLO!!! okok, i will be fine!!! XD

carol>> cannot balance. lol

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WA.. this is a super long entry. shall up date ltr.

CHEERIOS

=)

2006-08-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

i was feelin DOWN. down down. i was actually disappointed, till then i realise it was nothing that i wanted. nothing..

it all started when a guy teach a girl the meaning of being happy
-> do the things u like, u wish to do. not being realistic.

the girl, was a super realistic ger. no dreams, happy is getting what i want not doing what i want.
slowly,
the girl change and started to like happy endings in movies,
cried and feel weak (like a ger).

the guy, became realistic.
studies is vital and he forgot what he teach the girl.
he forgot how to be happy? he forgot how to slow down and go to the beach..

the girl tried to sound happy everyday hoping to cheer him up.
knowing that it doesnt work, she became demoralise.
feeling useless..

now now, the ger need a reality check!
its not a fairytale anymore, it is reality.

memories hold us together
but reality sadly, is tearing us apart.

the girl promise, not to shed a single tear anymore.
enough is enough.

=)

ps: thanks qi rui! u made my day! XD being wit u allow me to concentrate and being so FUNNY makes me feel so much beta. =DD i love you! and thanks 4 telling me i had done enff for my cip. i can do it!!!

going down down down

2006-08-21T14:09:00.000+08:00

i spend the whole of yesterday night and today morning feeling EMO

i hate it wen i feel lidat.
cried to sleep last night, cried in the morning, cried b4 my 1st nap.

i dont know, the more i study cip the more i regret taking this course. seriously, it doesnt suit me. ME, I LOVE SCI but i dint dare to take up challenge, dint dare to compete with people better than me. i'm afraid of compeition and now? im regretting.

who to blame? i choose tis path i choose poly instead of jc.
ok, after talkin to desmond i think that poly is better. but. A SCI COURSE MAYBE?!??!

=( i need some imediate cheering up.
but still, im feeling MUCH better now.
i can squeeze some stuff into my brain.
and.. i will make the best out of a mistake. no point bothering right?
i wish you were here with me. (idonteventhinkuwilreadthisanyway)
but no. WHATS THE MOST IMPT THING? studies was e ans u wn. so i gave u..
nomore, studies is not the mst impt thing. de mst impt is being happy.
i'll search 4 it and hopefully happiness might like me some day.

at least i know wds a eportfolio

a e-portfolio is a place a collection of evidence of our work. (ipeeked)
POSTIVIST = the assessment part of the portfolio
CONSTUCTIVIST = the learning or processing portfolio
SHOWCASE = hao lian, to show the best work and is often bias.
woots.

E-portfolio development process
1) COLLECT = collect evidence of what you know, what you can do and what you vaule. e.g CCA, Academic. (shouldnt be what u achieve mehs? stupid)

2) SELECT = define the purpose of the portfolio, the targeted audience

CRAP. i dont wn type anymore.

BYE BYE!

=)

2006-08-17T14:25:00.000+08:00

i ought to be studyin econs,
but im super restless larh.

i seriously, dunno what you want.

idoloveyou.

THE CLICK

2006-08-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

oh man!!
i love this movie!
it's very very weird 4 steph to love happy ending,
im super sadist ok? i love sad ending =D

i learned that i really need to cherish people around.
ok, BYE BYE EMO STEPH!!!

i've decided, i want to love you with all my heart!
XDD

repliess.

2006-08-09T23:19:00.001+08:00

i think i will reply tag here

ling >> THANKS FOR COMIN. hahaha.. u love green right? so u love me!! YAY!

beaut>> okok!!! show u picture. XD

chunhui>> ELLO!!! hahahaha.. who bully u?

huijun>> OPPSS!! sorry!! =p

weiyang>> U DARE U SLAP I STAND DER DONT MOVE. lol!!!! =p

now i had a huge problem.
he wants me back.
HOW? tsk tsk.
just wen im so determind to really gt over it. =(

repliess.

2006-08-09T23:19:00.000+08:00

omg

2006-08-08T15:00:00.000+08:00

oh man,
today is the EVE of national day~
eee.. wanted to go back to peicai but rui say ms lee say pointless cus de tcher all busy
true true~~

im so bored at home!!
CHANQIRUI HAS SCL THUS I CNNT GO HER HUSE TO SEE LUFFY N STUDY.
now i cant study alone. haiyoo.. no motivation

SLAP ME!!
tsk tsk.. notti steph.

somehow, i wish for you. =)

boooo~~~

2006-08-07T16:16:00.000+08:00

seriously,
i dunno what i want now.
but does what i want now even important?

i feel the insiginificant of me to you as days goes by.
i hate to wait for phone calls.
i hate "i'll call you back later"
you never did and i hate to wait.

whatever it is, this time.. it is really goodbye.

focus now steph. dont bother.

dumb dumb steph

2006-08-06T11:29:00.000+08:00

ok..
new blog's up!
because dumb dumb steph 4gt her username. --"

was IDARE mini gathering yesterday.
was quite fun i cnnt deny~
e amazing race part. blue5 was 2nd! XD had fun with them!! (6 of us thou added 1 halfway thru)
omg, i cldnt belief de world is lke super small.
my gl is frm peicai! lol

i dint even know he was in peicai.

ohwell.

rantings cumming soooonnn. =D